Day 13-A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

So, i have decided that it is nearly impossible for me to blog every day, so i'm just going to go with it, and when i have time i will do another post... that way you won't get so sick of me from reading something EVERY DAY! haha

so this post is kinda hard to even start... i'm going to let it marinate a little and then come back to it...

THREE DAYS LATER:

so i have decided that this is virtuously impossible for me to write... A) because it's a little too personal for a blog, and B) anyone who knows me knows that i usually keep this sort of thing inside... so we will leave it there. :) there definitely is someone i would like to write this letter to, but i would rather talk to them personally instead of broadcasting it all over my blog.

most of my life i have been pretty passive aggressive when it comes to confrontation, which is something i am trying to work on... ask my hubby. :) when we have disagreements i usually will dance around what is really bothering me and say things i really don't mean to get a reaction. he tells me all the time to just tell him what's really wrong so he can fix it. men are the world's worst mind readers! :)

so as for this letter... instead of putting it up for everyone else to read, i shall write it to this person instead.

Day 12-How you found out about blogger and why you have one

this will be short, and probably boring. it's been a long and busy week, and i'm tired. i discovered blogger after my mission because my sisters both had blogs. i held out for awhile because i was trying to rebel against the influx of technology, but alas... i broke down. :) i had one blog for over a year, but got tired of that one, so i started this one. to be honest, i don't know why i have one. i have no angle, i am no julie/julia, pioneer woman, or nienie... but i guess i have something to say sometimes, and this is a forum to say it. it makes me feel good that friends and family follow the blog and are interested in those things i have to say. :) maybe one day i can be a pioneer woman and make millions off my blog... anything is possible right? :)

WHOA, i'm behind! Days 9, 10, and 11!

So I have had some very busy days at work, hence the no blogging while at work... and then when I get home, I am so tuckered out that the blog is the last thing on my mind. They don't pay me enough for what I've been doing lately! What do I do besides blog you may be thinking? Well I am creating an elementary Spanish curriculum for 6 different grade levels... it's fun... not really, but I do love my job and am grateful to have it. ANYWAYS...

Day 9-Something you're proud of in the past few days

Well something I am VERY proud of is that i CHOPPED my hair off today! It was really scary, especially when she put my hair in a pony tail and then hacked it off. I have to be completely honest. I am a little obsessed with the kardashian sisters, and I L-O-V-E their hair. I also love that I have two sisters as well, and that we all had long beautiful hair. Isn't that so funny/weird that that was keeping me from cutting my hair?! I didn't want to be the only sister with short hair, and I didn't want to be "that" pregnant lady/new mom that cuts her hair because she just can't handle it. But... I couldn't. I only ever did my hair on Sunday mornings, and even then not very often. I either went to school with wet curly hair or wet hair up in a bun with a headband... real attractive. So then as I thought about it more I realized that the kardashian sisters have a slew of stylists that do their hair for them every day, and it was ok to be "that" pregnant lady. I needed a change, and I needed something easy to take care of. besides... it's freakin adorable!

Day 10-Songs you listen to when you're bored, happy, sad, mad, hyped

um, this is kinda hard to be honest... the older i get, the less music i listen to. wow... i sound like a grandma! haha

bored - if i'm bored and want to listen to music i will probably try to get un-bored, so i'll usually put on something really fun like a musical... read "wicked" or "legally blond"... and belt it out

happy - if i'm happy i love to listen to some good "girl" music like sara bareilles, kelly clarkson, or colbie callait

sad - my new favorite song is "i look to you" by whitney houston, sang by mercedes on GLEE. it is seriously gorgeous, the vocals are hot, and the message is just what you need to hear when you are feeling down... there is always someone there who will understand and give you strength.

mad - i'm a little obsessed with chris brown's "deuces" which is an angry song to begin with. the beat is angry, the lyrics are angry... basically it's pretty darn hot

hyped - um... i don't think ive been hyped any time recently, so i have no idea what i would listen to. probably just something with a good beat to keep you hyped

Day 11-Another picture of you and your friends

this is jules, joshy, and i at my wedding. it was pretty much the BEST WEEK EVER! just ask them, they'll tell you! :) basically, my parents love them as much as me (my dad might even like julie a tad bit more than me! haha... it's cause she's pretty darn funny) and they have an open invitation at my house whether i am there or not... seriously... my mom even invited josh to live at my house if he got this internship he wanted with marriott... and they told jules to come stay with them for spring break. i have great friends. :)

Day 8-Short term goals for this month and when you'll accomplish them

Goals, Goals, Goals... wow this one is going to be a little tough...

1. i need to get my hospital bag packed. i had a dream the other night that my water broke and we had absolutely nothing ready to go. i will do this by the end of the week.

2. we need to tour the two hospitals that we are thinking about delivering at. i will make the phone calls to set up the tours tomorrow.

3. i need have my lessons planned and at least have originals that i can just copy through christmas break. this will give me the time that i need to plan for my maternity leave. i would like this to happen by the beginning of december

those are my goals, we shall see what happens!

Day 7-A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

at first i thought this was going to be hard, and then i realized just how easy this task was going to be for me...

my husband

i love being married.... and i especially love being married to HIM. it is such a challenge sometimes... if you know us, you know we fight a lot... we are in a fight as i write this actually... over something stupid of course, but we are both too prideful right now to do anything about it. we will work it out though... we always do.

marriage has taught me a lot about myself. i thought i had learned a lot on my mission, but that doesn't even come close! JJ helps me be a better person. i was talking to krista the other day and she told me she was proud of me because she has seen me become a lot less selfish. this says a lot because i am the self-proclaimed most selfish person that i know... well knew i guess, because i wouldn't say that anymore. sure i am still selfish, but i try to think of JJ before myself. i try really hard to put my dishes in the dishwasher... i try to plan... i try to pick my clothes up... i try not to be too all over the place. in essence i am trying so hard to do the things that i know are important to him, and while i try to do those things for him, they become important to me and i begin to do them for myself.

JJ is such a good man, and i am so blessed to have found him. it seems that in our separate lives we always chose to take the hard road, and sometimes it seems that we still do. we are in no way, shape, or form ready for this baby, but we put it into the Lord's hands and apparently He thought we were ready. JJ is going to be such a good father, and i know i can always count on him. not a day goes by that i don't think about how much i love him... even when we fight. :)

Day 6-Favorite super hero and why

My most favorite super hero of all time is SHE-RA, Princess of Power. why, you ask? well, because she is AWESOME. i might have had a HUGE crush on He-Man, her twin brother, so of course i would love his sister's show even better... since it was all about girl power. i also love it because she changed from bad to good. she was kidnapped as a baby and brought up to believe she was a general in the evil army fighting against the Great Rebellion. He-Man finds out who she is, turns her to the good side, and she then joins the Great Rebellion to fight against evil... whoa... lots of gospel analogies to be made there. :) Anyways, She-Ra is my favorite, and that is why! :)

Day 5-A picture of somewhere you've been to

Don't worry... i'm blogging at work... why you might ask? well, because i am planned and copied for the next week since i was at work until 6:30 last night. tonight i will be here until 7:00, so i have lots of time. i'm hoping to get planned and copied through Christmas so that i can focus on planning my lessons for my long term sub during maternity leave. oh, and i have to make a curriculum binder as well outlining what the students in each grade should know their first year of Spanish... um, remember how i make it up like every day? we'll see how that turns out...

anyways, a picture of somewhere i have been... wow. i haven't been a lot of places, but i have been to a few very cool places... haiti, puerto rico, st. thomas, bahamas, mexico, spain, portugal, italy, and quite a few places in the country. i haven't been to south america or canada yet, but i have a friend in canada who i would LOVE to go visit. :) hopefully that can be planned soon.

so the place i chose was.... drumroll please... SPAIN!

i mainly chose spain because not only am i now obsessed with the country and want to go back, but that is where julie and i became besties. we knew we wanted to be roommates about two minutes into our first intro class because we were the only two girls in our group that spoke fluent spanish, were over the age of 19, and returned missionaries. it was love at first sight. :) we got close with a few others, but not to the point that jules and i are. we might have taken pictures in just about anything that resembled a tub and was roped off... we also might have discovered that i have an aversion to all things public transportation... not only because of the crazies, but because i will fall down basically aboard anything that moves... think busses and trains... we're cool... love her...

here i am outside the prado (the famous art museum in madrid). madrid is gorgeous. there is this park smack in the middle of the city... think central park but more beautiful and peaceful.

and here is my favorite place in all of spain... la alhambra in granada. granada was the last muslim stronghold to fall to isabella and ferdinand in 1492 in the reconquista. it is massive and peaceful, and we might have gotten "lost" from our group just so we could take a few extra minutes and watch the sunset from a bench at the top on the palace. i couldn't bring myself to leave. it was gorgeous, it smelled of roses, and all we could hear were the birds and running water. i can't wait to go back someday!